My life could not be more upside down right now and there are moments I wonder if I'm going to make it. I know I will, and everybody has been there, but right now--as in this minute--it just seems so unbearable--committing myself seems like a really good option. I could get used to bad food if it offers me a little sanity in the end.
I suppose I was due. Not that I have lived a super charmed life, but things have always seemed to work out. Believe it or not, I'm an optimist. Unfortunately it's because of this that I am in the situation I am now.
I'm not ready to talk to about it, and don't know that I will be for some time. But I needed to do something, and for some reason talking to the internet seemed like the best damn option. I suppose because it's always there for me, doesn't talk back, and has never taken advantage of me (that PayPal scam doesn't count, I figured it out).
I don't even feel like a glass of wine. That tells me something. I did smoke a cig, and it just made me want to vomit.
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Life is really, really hard sometimes. REALLY! It s those REALLY hard times that test your spirit, patience, sanity and will. I know you will oass Courtney. You are strong and your strength wll get you through whatever is going on. I was in a really bad place almost a year and a half ago and I survived...barely. Talking to the Internet saved me, still does.
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